Author: Melissa Flood

Melissa Flood lives in New Jersey and has been published in The Underground Literary Journal.

Sunshine Depresso

I played Barbie’s on my bed with friends named Eileen and Jolene.
An age of innocence and monsters underneath.
Singing along to a Mentos commercial
In a full moon
we started smoking cigarettes talking about
French kissing and sex.

Once upon a dream a boy came along
we started to watch a movie on a vcr
it was five minutes in and he put his hand
on my leg and everything in me caught fire

I lost nothing between my sheets
Even though I thought I was supposed to
was I woman now? Was I woman before?
I don’t know me. I don’t understand.

I wrote XO on his forehead when he told me he loved me
it was around the time
I started shedding my skin
biting down on my clothes to
keep from screaming wasn’t enough anymore

In the mirror that’s not me, she’s not me
why am I disappearing in everything
and it got worse
I couldn’t hide it
and everyone started to see me

Now once a week
my sister pours water on me
she said flowers will sprout
all over me and I won’t feel sad anymore
but I dissolve into my mattress

and my mother comes in everyday
asks if I’m okay and says you are my sunshine
and hopes I start to sing like I always did.

Holy Animal

God bites the girl on her inner thigh
So She fish hooks him through his cheek
as she brings him closer
drops of blood fall on her body
Are you afraid? she asks
He mumbles
Because I’m not even close
she says